Holy Week and Faith

As a Christian, I am looking forward to this Holy Week. I have plans to attend my church for services on Thursday, Friday and Sunday and I look forward to the hope of transformation in my life. With all the changes that have occurred over the past few months, Easter has a deeper meaning to me.

Losing my job is a life-changing event and I had two choices- I could be bitter, or I could use the time as an opportunity to grow further into my true identity.  I've really enjoyed these months as I explore my options, investigate different businesses, and allow myself to be guided by God. It's amazing how He uses people to communicate to us, whether it's a suggestion from a friend or stranger... or something we see or hear when we are out and about. If we listen closely enough we will know what it is that God wants us to know.

I also believe that our plans are not always readily visible for us, that we must have faith that things will work out the way they are supposed to.  My husband is a little fearful of the future and our ability to sustain a decent standard of living. I try to reassure him that we are okay, but he is concerned. I have to remind myself to be diligent in moving forward, but to have faith that things will be okay.

I continue to have faith in this journey and look forward to the hope of Easter.  That through my faith I will know God's will for me and that I will set aside the fear and move forward in the direction set before me.

Until next time,
Sue

Moving Down the Path

I've decided to start a web-based business. It's a little scary, especially because I don't have a good understanding about the amount of money I can make from this venture, but I'm excited.  My mind is clear and I feel good about what I've come up with. I'm still brainstorming a name, working on a business plan (to get financing) and gathering information, but I am close to highering a developer.  I will be able to act as a consultant for small businesses and provide a service to others at the same time.

Over the past few months I've talked to people bouncing my ideas off of them and listening to what they had to say. One day I was at church in prayer asking God for direction and it came over me... He was giving me direction all along through the conversations I've had with people. 

Thanks be to God for His wisdom and guidance. May I continue to have the faith that things will be okay.

Until next time.
Sue

Seeing the Blessings

Lately I have had this overwhelming feeling that I am blessed.  I don't have a job, and yet I feel a sense of abundance. My heart is filled with gratitude and hope for the future.  I was sitting with a bunch of friends last night and one of them is older with cancer that has spread to his organs and brain. He was sharing about how grateful he was that he had a chance to go through each and every experience in his life- both good and bad. He talked about how he saw children fighting this battle with cancer, and some of them would never make it to college, or get a job, or know how to be a lover, or get married and have a family. He has 5 children, 14 grandchildren and a loving wife of many years and he is blessed. 

He may be sick and leave this earth, but he is blessed.  He is surrounded by God's light and love; he is surrounded by the love of his family and friends; He has lived a life filled with work, golf, friendship and service.  He is blessed... and I am blessed to be able to call him my friend, but that is not where my blessings stop.

I am blessed that I don't have a job (check back with me to see if I still feel this way in a couple months ;o). This is a time for me to reflect on my past and move into the future. It's a time to look at what's in my heart and move forward.  I want to work for myself- and create a business that will allow me to earn a decent living, yet be there for my children as they move into grade school.  I don't know what to do, how to do it or where the money will come from, but I want to try. I would rather take the risk and give this a try, than get old and regret what if...

I'm learning there are many resources out there. Places I can go to learn, people I can talk to that can direct me to where I need to go.  Believe me I am scared to start my own business, to leave the security of a guaranteed paycheck... (but then again, what paycheck is really guaranteed)?

I am blessed with faith in God, knowing that this is all part of a greater plan. I am blessed with a family that I love so very deeply, and that love me too. I am blessed with an abundance of friends who have been there for me over the years, through the good times and bad.  I am blessed with a roof over my head and warm clothes to wear and I am blessed that you are reading my blog.

One of my Passions

I love to write. I went to school for Business Communications so I could write for a living. My previous job entailed a lot of writing over the past 15 years, and the subject always had a common thread.  When I recently lost my job I wondered if I would be able to write about anything else.

I decided to do some volunteer work for my church and my mom asked for some help with a project she wanted to propose to her employer.  I've been writing press releases, activating social media, and researching childcare for a proposal... all of which have been well received. It is nice to see that I can write about different subjects from faith to childcare and still know how to use my words.

After spending 22 years at the same company, I had some fears about my actual skills and abilities. I worried that somehow I was faking it and if I ever lost my job I wouldn't be able to do anything else.

This journey is showing me that I can do other things.  My volunteer work is giving me a chance to not only build on my resume, but to validate what is true about me- that I love to write and I can do just about anything.

Until next time,
Sue

Self-Worth and Self-Discovery

It seems like every few days I feel emotional. Today is one of those days. I know that part of change is letting go of the past and sometimes I find myself holding onto things that aren't good for my mental well being.  I think what bothers me the most is when I see something change that I had a part of. I don't know if it's because I've gotten myself wrapped up in what I believe in so much that I can't see an alternate view, or if it's just grieving the loss of something I loved so much.

Perhaps I found too much of my self-worth through my work and not enough through my faith.  I'm one of those people that as a child, I had a lot of negative messages going through my head, and although I am older and have worked through most of the messages, some are still there.  I remember when I was in my 20's I posted little notes around my apartment to change the way I thought of myself.  After a couple years I began to believe in my abilities and really started to grow in my position at work. I gained more and more experience, and was promoted a few times into new roles that I found challenging and rewarding. I invested a lot of time and emotions into my job.

Where do I get my self-worth from now that I don't have a job?  As I mentioned above, I can turn to God for help with this but what else? My children, my husband, my home, my family... a little bit of everything? Perhaps there is more than one reason I find myself without a job and going through this change. Maybe I will learn more about myself than I ever dreamed of.  I know this too shall pass in regards to how I feel today and I must have faith that things are going to be okay.  Self-discovery is a wonderful thing, and I am grateful I have this opportunity.

Until next time.
Sue

A Start to a New Day

I've recently gone through a major change in my life. I lost my job after 22 years with the same company. It was a job I loved, that I felt passionate about and looked forward to each day. This change is giving me an opportunity to look at my life and go in the direction that is meant for me.  Nothing happens by mistake. I believe God will guide me to where I'm supposed to be. This is my journey.